Living With the Threat of Fires In San Diego

“When I dare to be powerful — to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid”.….Audre Lorde


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When I was 15 years old, my father, a devoted firefighter who absolutely loved his job, died at a fire.  He was 36 years old.  Throughout my life, I’ve struggled with a fear of wildfires. Try as I might, the sight of black smoke in the skies sends me into an emotional tailspin. 

This week I’ve had a chance to better understand this fear, as San Diego has been consumed with 9 different major fires, many of them burning near my home and near where Remington lives.  At one point, I found myself running back and forth between the stables and my home, preparing to evacuate both locations.  Thankfully, both Remington and my husband and I as well as our other critters didn’t have to leave.  Several of the fires still burn but at this point, we are safe.

Yesterday when I was grooming Remington, trying to stay focused and calm despite my worries about the fires, Remy made it clear that he wanted me to let go of my fearful thoughts.  Fidgeting and pinning his ears, his message was clear:  “This energy doesn’t feel good!”  I stopped, took a few deep breaths and began to stroke his head lovingly and slowly.  I concentrated on connecting deeply with my horse, sending him healing energy.  His head began to drop, his eyes started to close and his breathing slowed down.  I too shifted….feeling the wonderful and soothing energy of relief and goodness flooding through us both.

It’s times like these when I am humbled and reminded why I am so grateful to have animals in my life.  I may not always have a handle on my own personal fears, but when I focus on my vision of being an advocate for animals, those fears can’t hold a candle to the power of my convictions.

4 Responses

  1. Mary Muncil
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    Dear Debra,
    This was such a powerful story. I could feel your calm (and Remington’s) come over me as I read it. Thank you …and I loved that quote.

  2. admin
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    Dear Mary, thank you for your positive feedback and I’m so glad that this story left you feeling calm. Much love to you. Debra

  3. Victoria Cummings
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    Debra – I am so glad that your home and Remy and all of you are safe after the latest wildfire. We used to live in North County and I have felt that fear on several unforgettable occasions. I had to evacuate my horses during one of them. It was really tense and difficult for all of us. My guess is that unfortunately this was a preview of what’s to come in SD as the summer and fall progress. I hope that you have a good strategy worked out and that Remy loads easily into a trailer. Moving to a new unknown place with all the chaos and emotional upheaval was tough on my girls. Just getting them to drink water became a big deal. So if there’s any way you could practice or get him used to where you would take him while everything is fine and calm, I’d recommend it. And welcome to the Bedlam Bloggers Group. I look forward to following your blog!

  4. admin
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    Dear Victoria, Many thanks for your thoughtful and kind words. I look forward to following your blog as well!

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